Often I find myself saying “what’s wrong with me?”
I say this after I find myself crying over something I can’t control.
I say this when I have judgmental or angry thoughts about someone who doesn’t deserve that energy directed at them.
I say this to myself when I have an intense emotional reaction to something that “shouldn’t” trigger me.
I say it even when I can’t think of what to make for dinner.
And every time I say this to myself, I feel like crap.
It’ doesn’t feel good to think that there’s something inherently “wrong” with me when I can’t understand what’s happening around me, or why I feel a certain way.
In reality, what is happening is just that- an inability to understand what is happening in the moment.
“What’s wrong with me that I can’t understand this?”
I find myself (literally) screaming out “NOTHING” every time I start to say “what’s wrong with me”.
I tell myself that there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING wrong with me, and that I am having a human experience. It’s perfectly ok to feel what I feel (and not understand it) and it’s perfectly ok to have no clue what is going on.
The key here is to have compassion for yourself.
We are SO HARD ON OURSELVES because there’s this “box of expectations” we put ourselves into based on our beliefs, experiences, and programming.
We believe we have to always understand, or feel a certain way, and that when we don’t adhere to these “principles” there is something “wrong” with us.
But, in Reality (with a capital R), we are perfect.
There is NOTHING wrong.
Everything just “IS”.
So, as a gesture of kindness to yourself, instead of labeling your experiences as “right” or “wrong”, “good” or “bad”, can you just call them what they are? AN EXPERIENCE.
You handle it however you see fit.
No judgment.
Because whatever you do for you, will always be “right”.