I’ll say it. I’m struggling.
Sometimes it’s hard to ask for help, or even to accept help. Lately I have found I’m denying myself the support I need because of old conditioning (and unhealed rejection/abandonment wounds).
I’ve always been the strong one, leading others through the battles of life, giving them somewhere to rest when it’s too much to handle, holding space for them to process the shit storm.
Even the warriors need to rest and heal.
These past few weeks have offered some of the deepest healing I could have ever asked for. I am about to go up against my biggest fears, because it’s time.
No more avoiding. No more waiting for things to change. No more choices that aren’t aligned with who I am becoming.
I’m scared. I cry about it all the time. I procrastinate because I’m overwhelmed. I avoid the pain at all costs. I listen to the ego’s lies.
But then I remember what I am.
That yes, I CAN do this.
And I will.
We all have put people here on this planet to help us along our journey. My Earth Angels show up at just the right time, with just the right information, and I am so grateful (as I am for all my other, Ethereal Angels).
This piece came out of a combination of experiences from yesterday, which was quite a powerful day (check out my reading from 7.8.21 on my personal Facebook page if you’d like some of that energy 😉🌚💥).
It’s rare that I post my poetry, but I feel like someone else out there might need to see it.
There’s a storm inside of me,
And it’s going to be ok.
I’m fucking terrified of these changes,
And it’s going to be ok.
I feel as if I might not win,
And it’s going to be ok.
I may not know who I even am, or why I’m even here,
And it’s going to be ok.
I don’t have all the answers, and know I never will,
And it’s going to be ok.
People won’t understand me,
And it’s going to be ok.
Leaning in makes me feel vulnerable,
And it’s going to be ok.
Every day behind me may have been a struggle,
And it’s going to be ok.
Every day I face might also be just as hard,
And it’s going to be ok.
I can tune back into my heart,
And know it’s going to be ok.