Do you trust the doors that open for you?
When a door opens for you, but it’s nothing like what you expected, what do you do?
Do you embrace the unknown, uncomfortable feeling you get when you tread the un-walked path, or do you get freaked out and run the other way?
I used to run.
And boy, was I FAST!!
If something wasn’t going how I expected it to right away, it “didn’t work” for me (can you say classic case of being a control freak?!).
I couldn’t trust the unknown.
I was too afraid.
I couldn’t handle being so out of control by not knowing.
I’d end up slamming doors that would have lead to amazing opportunities, had I just trusted the path.
I missed out on so many potentially wonderful adventures, solely due to my fear.
I passed on having exactly what I wanted because I was too blind to see it was being held out in front of me, just in an unfamiliar way.
This has lead to many (too many), years of looking back with eyes of regret, anger, resentment, and guilt on “everything I missed out on”.
But, I won’t let these feelings get the best of me.
I could get all wrapped up in feeling “bad” about all the things I didn’t do, but instead, I choose to use it as fuel for my future.
It’s fuel because I can turn that former fear into excitement. Everything I thought I was afraid of, if it is meant for me, then I can use that energy to help me face my fears, and do the thing.
The same door keeps presenting itself to me, yet I am terrified to open it.
But I KNOW that freedom is on the other side.
And I KNOW it’s meant for me.
I can FEEL it from the other side, calling me to open it.
Many other doors are still shut and locked. But this one….it’s just closed. All I have to do is turn the knob and walk through…